A Heart Awake…
A while back I prayed God “what am I”, “who am I”. and “What and
who are You”? I had been struggling with
my emotions. I guess that is what happens when you are 90% sanguine. I was led to read the book of Proverbs and I
learned much about “Wisdom” it was something I truly wanted to learn, although
others wouldn’t say I was reacting out of my emotions I was tired of wanting
to. Every day I would read one chapter and I would write down a minimal of one
verse. I was kind of sad when I had finished. As I love learning and putting
that into practice.
I asked God what was next. I
struggled with the whole thing of being beautiful, And Days like today…
found me wondering, will I ever hear those words. Words that every woman wants
to hear a man say to her “You are beautiful” and not just from anyone, but from
someone who cares deeply, lately I have started to feel otherwise. In a crowded
room, I feel invisible… not beautiful… I know I am smart and I come across as
confident – at least “my public face” … but I also want to hear those words, “You
are beautiful” and more than anything I want to know that they are true.
God directed me to the “Song of Solomon” talk about having desire
awakened in me. WOW. But in all of that “He told me I was “beautiful”, and He
called me “darling” – “How beautiful you are my darling, beautiful beyond
words”- “your voice is pleasant and your face is lovely” – “Your eyes are like
doves” - “Your lips are like scarlet ribbon your mouth is inviting” I learned
of “Beauty, Sensuality and what being Sexy looks like… I loved and embraced it.
Today He directed me to read the book of “Acts” to learn about
“Power” and as He showed me the path that He was taking me on - God rendered me speechless. He knows that is
not easily accomplished LOL - When He revealed to me the lethal combination of
“Wisdom, Beauty, and Power” All in and
through Him… It gave new meaning to the Acts 17:28 “For in Him we live and move
and have our being! Wow it sent shivers down my spine. I was completely
unable to utter a word. And I just sat
there and smiled at Him, with “lips like a scarlet ribbon and so inviting” as
He says. With wonder, amazement and tears of joy, rolling down my cheeks.
