AWAKE MY HEART

A Heart Awake…

A while back I prayed God “what am I”, “who am I”. and “What and who are You”?  I had been struggling with my emotions. I guess that is what happens when you are 90% sanguine.  I was led to read the book of Proverbs and I learned much about “Wisdom” it was something I truly wanted to learn, although others wouldn’t say I was reacting out of my emotions I was tired of wanting to. Every day I would read one chapter and I would write down a minimal of one verse. I was kind of sad when I had finished. As I love learning and putting that into practice.

I asked God what was next.  I struggled with the whole thing of being beautiful, And Days like today… found me wondering, will I ever hear those words. Words that every woman wants to hear a man say to her “You are beautiful” and not just from anyone, but from someone who cares deeply, lately I have started to feel otherwise. In a crowded room, I feel invisible… not beautiful… I know I am smart and I come across as confident – at least “my public face” … but I also want to hear those words, “You are beautiful” and more than anything I want to know that they are true.

God directed me to the “Song of Solomon” talk about having desire awakened in me. WOW. But in all of that “He told me I was “beautiful”, and He called me “darling” – “How beautiful you are my darling, beautiful beyond words”- “your voice is pleasant and your face is lovely” – “Your eyes are like doves” - “Your lips are like scarlet ribbon your mouth is inviting” I learned of “Beauty, Sensuality and what being Sexy looks like… I loved and embraced it.

Today He directed me to read the book of “Acts” to learn about “Power” and as He showed me the path that He was taking me on -  God rendered me speechless. He knows that is not easily accomplished LOL - When He revealed to me the lethal combination of “Wisdom, Beauty, and Power” All in and through Him… It gave new meaning to the Acts 17:28 “For in Him we live and move and have our being! Wow it sent shivers down my spine. I was completely unable to utter a word.  And I just sat there and smiled at Him, with “lips like a scarlet ribbon and so inviting” as He says. With wonder, amazement and tears of joy, rolling down my cheeks.